Where is God now?
About a year and a half ago I wrote a blogpost in Norwegian about looking for God , searching for him without finding him, going through doubts and disappointment and wondering if he was even watching... or caring.... For the longest time it was as if there was this thick glass wall between him and I.... I couldn´t find him, I couldn´t feel or reach him, nothing made sense and it felt like I was all alone in the world. I´ve kept searching... And then a few months ago I realized that something had changed... I tried to explain it in a couple of blogposts, Bye for now Norway and Another pause, but it was hard to put into words. Maybe something like - it wasn´t like God was gone anymore... but he wasn´t close either. More like he was in the room, at times even sitting at the same long table... but just in the opposite end, and we weren´t really talking to one another. And I started to wonder if it was more about God finding me, than me looking for him..?! ...